It can be hard to wait on the Lord’s timing with patience. It can be difficult to keep praying the same prayers over and over again, longing for an answer. Sometimes, even when we get an answer, it’s not the one we were expecting or wanted.
We read that His burden is easy and His yoke is light (Matt 11:30), but some days, it’s all we can do to bear it. I think that is because we are trying to lift it ourselves instead of allowing Him to lift it for us. Or because you can’t see the purpose in carrying whatever you carry.
I don’t know if there’s always purpose in suffering. I can’t know the mind of God. His ways are not my ways (Isaiah 55:8). But, we can link our suffering to the suffering of Jesus in the garden, during the trial, on the road to the cross, and on the cross. He suffered and died for you so that you might have life to the full (John 10:10).
We are thirsty and instead of going to the source of life giving water, we look to a well that will run dry. Instead of allowing God to bolster us up when we are weak, we rely on our own strength.
I stumble and falter yet continue doing the same things, walking the same paths. Instead of throwing aside everything and following Jesus like Bartimaeus (Mark 10: 46-52), I cling to things that are fleeting, that won’t last.
Instead, I should look to the one who has shown us what love is, what love looks like. I should want Him to fill my life. I should strive to encounter Him and then share Him with others. When He comes into my life, it’s better. Calmer. The worries I had seem small, the temptations that once overwhelmed me like gnats against the windshield of an airplane, and the fears for my future eased.
He wants more for you than you want for yourself. He knows what will make you filled with joy, peace, hope, and love. Discern His will for your life, find your purpose, and walk with Him. He does answer prayers.